Love Like You've Never Been Hurt

To the Man Who has Endured a Lot for Me ❤


I know I could just be the toughest bride you could have and probably the most fearing one all at the same time. Might be the person who is the most difficult to understand and even to hold down when you have to.


I'm sorry for last night even spilling it over until this morning, and how I could just place that wall back up on days I know it could shatter down effortlessly.


I honestly am frustrated about a lot of things when it comes to love, how much I want to make it right this time. How much I wanted to finally say I am happy , I've found that one that feeling that I've questioned a long time and it scares me a lot when this feeling of one day you'll leave me because of my flaws kills me, and my instant reaction is hold myself tight and protect myself from all the pain.


I'd give up not because I want you out of my life. I'd give up not because you've got flaws. I'd give up because I know that if one day you leave me knowing I did all I can and I gave more than what I could, it is going to be the most painful for me. If one day that ever comes you will see me numb but no one is ever going to know how big a part of me might just die.


I'm afraid that one day I will find myself back where I was 5 years ago. I may not run after you all the time, I may not plead for you to stay at most times but talk about fear - I feel the same fear even more of it this time. So much fear that I tend to protect myself, maybe because I am too afraid that it will happen all over again. Loving too much and losing yourself, the worse part is I know you would be that guy who always meant well and I wouldn't see any flaw that I could hate or I could blame.


Now that I'm about to introduce you to my whole family as someone I'm looking forward as my future.. What if one day you'll get tired? What if one day you find me as a mistake because of all my flaws? And I wouldn't know how to pick myself up again.. If you leave, what am I going to do?


I'm sorry I'm crying as write this down. I'm sorry if I am being too emotional. I'm sorry for all my flaws and shortcomings.


I remember Migs throwing me a question before - Doesn't he have any flaws? Question might be regarding a different person but if I were to answer it today. Yancy does have his own flaws that I've learned to love. I could find myself getting annoyed like other people would, but end of day I know that's him and I've learned to embraced that because more than it - I know he wouldn't do anything to hurt me. I guess I've learned to see things through just because of you.


If one day, things change - I don't think I'd ever find myself mad because you did anything wrong. I'd find myself mad because of all my little mistakes.  I love you and I'm sorry.