To My Forever ❤


Today counts the 1st day of my trip and far from you love, after almost 2 weeks vacation. Today is also a first, having distance since we got engaged. This month is also our 3rd year of being together.

You might not be expecting that I have a little surprise for you while I'm away since I'm always with you. I know you miss doing our letter hunt, mahal. This time it's going to be a day to day hunt where I will be sending you hints each day in order to find each letter.

I'm going to miss you soooo much bb loves and i wouldn't want you to feel alone while I'm away for a few days. I hope that these letters would make you feel my presence somehow and I promise I will be back soon, love. I love love love you soooo much bb ko.

I will be back soon ok? Please kembutts only haaaa, no one else.. wait for me for our next adventure and for our journey together ok. I love love you sooo much !

I'm sure it's past 11pm by the time I get to message you, don't worry too much ok? I will message you as soon as I arrive in Taiwan bb loves.

L❤VE,

The Girl

Who Misses You So Much

Written Thoughts

To The Man I Will Always Look Forward To❤


A list of occasions that I will always look forward to seeing and be with you. Ending my working day to seeing and being with you has always been the highlight of my work week. Weekends, an exciting ending to the busy week, I get to spend 2 straight days with you just cuddling too. And maybe that 1 thing that kept running on my mind is, how is it going to be on that special day when I get to say I'll wake up each day seeing your lovely face.

There were a couple of times I'd say I may not be ready to settle down knowing how career oriented I was.There were days I'd question myself if I'm ready for bigger responsibilities and the future of not just thinking of what I want for my life. There was just this ride going to work that got me wondering - how is it going to be on that special day?

I know it's still more than a year to go until that day but thinking about it drew a small smile on my lips. It's a bit scary thinking if we're ready, but I know I'm ready to meet you at the end of the altar.

The past months had been a test of how much I give up in exchange of bigger responsibilities. I know I've told you before that I keep finding myself in choosing you more than any other decision I could make.

Leaving work at 5 was the hardest when I started doing it this year, but God was faithful in His promise in guiding us and giving us the best situation that could help us keep our relationship strong. The time that I was scared that I might not have and might not be able to commit to was never a problem. I myself is amazed with how he led me to leaving at 6pm and getting to your office just in time, until you changed your shift and I had to leave work at 5pm to make sure that I'll be there by dinner time. He is indeed faithful love and He kept it going until today. Looking back, it had almost been a year that I get to be with you at least twice a week.

Let's keep praying mahal that He keeps on guiding us and blessing us. I know it's been a pressure lately, now that we're able to share our plans with my parents. I know He will provide and there is nothing to worry.

I love you bie, so much and I can't wait to be with you.

L❤VE,

The Girl Who Hopes

To Be with You Forever

A Year Ago And Stronger

To The Most Patient Man I Know ❤

It had been a year since I last wrote something on my online diary, it has also been a year of challenges that we've faced and overcome. A year of things being far better and focusing more on us. Thank you that despite the challenges of not having enough time, not being able to have much over nights you understood and had been patient beyond all of it. Thank you that even if we had a bad fight after several months, you stood by, chose to have a sleepless night and had been patient with my tantrums. 

I thank God for a man like you. I thank God for all the love you've given me. It would never cross my mind to ask for someone better because you were everything I prayed and wished for. Few more months to go and it's going to be our 3rd year being together and counting to our fourth. This has been the longest and happiest I've ever been. Looking forward to forever and having more great memories together love.

Just a few weeks left babe, we'll be on our yearly staycation. I can't wait to be with you. :)

L❤VE,

Your Baby Girl

Happy Birthday

To my birthday boy ❤

This year is something different from our extravagant celebrations. There were a lot of things that happened this year, a roller coaster of challenges and opportunities. 

I've bumped into a couple of troubles too, and I know I've hurt you. I know I didn't have the courage to speak because I was always afraid to disappoint you, to find you silent, or to even have that talk about these things that make you shut down when I need you to tell me how you feel. I know it's going to be the side of me that might be there forever, people you don't like may try to stick around but I need that trust that you know I'll do what's right. 

I know I've been too busy to speak, we've been too preoccupied to talk and be really there for each other. I know I did choose you that day. I know that at any occasion, I've proved to myself that I'd choose you. I was thankful for those occasions, for those temptation, for those problems - I may have started feeling that fear, but I know I'm stronger now because you were there. I know I'd choose you over anything and anyone. 

I'm sorry, this might have been the worse birthday celebration you've had. I know I'm not perfect and I won't be. All I'm wishing is that you'd trust me enough to be there when I make mistakes. I wish you'd trust me enough to speak on these tough times. I wish you'd love me beyond your fear and doubts. 

I hope that you'd see through, that you are my strength and happiness even on days that I'm tired and having trouble. I love you so much. 

Maybe my wish for you this year is to find that love in me because you are blessed beyond your years without knowing. I wish that you'd find that happiness in me, Happy Birthday love.

L❤VE,

The Girl Who Loves You

The Most

Keeping You Forever

To my Superman❤


Lately I may not been able to take care of you too well, we've been too busy with a lot of things - preparing for the coming home of your ate, preparing for Christmas and many other things. Thank you for all your patience even on days when I have my short comings, thank you for being my gentle giant when I tend to give time more to myself than taking care of you. Thank you for taking care of me even on the days I lack affection or concern about us and specially you.

You are the greatest gift God has given me, no material gift or luxury could ever over power your presence. Even if these material things be taken away from you, I would never exchange you for any of it love. Even your silence makes me feel home, even the staring contest that we do on quiet days would make me feel that it is you I'm with.

Thank you love for being you, for being the best partner that I could ever have. To more years to come for us love. I love you so much!

L❤VE,

The Little Miss

Who Needs Your Love

Love Like You've Never Been Hurt

To the Man Who has Endured a Lot for Me ❤


I know I could just be the toughest bride you could have and probably the most fearing one all at the same time. Might be the person who is the most difficult to understand and even to hold down when you have to.


I'm sorry for last night even spilling it over until this morning, and how I could just place that wall back up on days I know it could shatter down effortlessly.


I honestly am frustrated about a lot of things when it comes to love, how much I want to make it right this time. How much I wanted to finally say I am happy , I've found that one that feeling that I've questioned a long time and it scares me a lot when this feeling of one day you'll leave me because of my flaws kills me, and my instant reaction is hold myself tight and protect myself from all the pain.


I'd give up not because I want you out of my life. I'd give up not because you've got flaws. I'd give up because I know that if one day you leave me knowing I did all I can and I gave more than what I could, it is going to be the most painful for me. If one day that ever comes you will see me numb but no one is ever going to know how big a part of me might just die.


I'm afraid that one day I will find myself back where I was 5 years ago. I may not run after you all the time, I may not plead for you to stay at most times but talk about fear - I feel the same fear even more of it this time. So much fear that I tend to protect myself, maybe because I am too afraid that it will happen all over again. Loving too much and losing yourself, the worse part is I know you would be that guy who always meant well and I wouldn't see any flaw that I could hate or I could blame.


Now that I'm about to introduce you to my whole family as someone I'm looking forward as my future.. What if one day you'll get tired? What if one day you find me as a mistake because of all my flaws? And I wouldn't know how to pick myself up again.. If you leave, what am I going to do?


I'm sorry I'm crying as write this down. I'm sorry if I am being too emotional. I'm sorry for all my flaws and shortcomings.


I remember Migs throwing me a question before - Doesn't he have any flaws? Question might be regarding a different person but if I were to answer it today. Yancy does have his own flaws that I've learned to love. I could find myself getting annoyed like other people would, but end of day I know that's him and I've learned to embraced that because more than it - I know he wouldn't do anything to hurt me. I guess I've learned to see things through just because of you.


If one day, things change - I don't think I'd ever find myself mad because you did anything wrong. I'd find myself mad because of all my little mistakes.  I love you and I'm sorry.

Through the Tough Times

To the Most Patient Person I know ❤

Lately, it had been quite a challenge for us - regarding schedule and work load. It had been quite a tough month for both of us as well, but I am more than thankful for the patience that you've showed me and for the love that you've made me feel bubbabs.

At times I may feel scared that I've given less of what should be, at times I may be scared that you might just give up on me but thank you for always assuring me that things are going to be ok. Thank you for all the love even if you are tired. Thank you for all the patience and in trying to absorb all my rants and stress. Thank you for all the tight hugs that make me smile. You just don't know how those hugs can just make me forget about everything.

I love you so much bubbabs ! Please don't ever get tired of me.

L❤VE,

Your Little Miss Kulit